Before I die I want to….

That would be my sentence if you would ask me to fill out the gaps. I was inspired by Candy Chang’s Before I die… Project.

I watched this TED speech below by Candy Chang in the evening, after a stupid paperwork load day, a day month of emails that let me question my choice of a profession as an artist, a day week that left me so uninspired that I asked myself “Who are you to think, you inspire others?”, a day that lead to an evening watching a tears-guaranteed chick flick movie and a bucket of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream on my lap (yeah hubs, that is what I do when you are gone ;) – all your fault- LOL) . Yep- I have whiny days …lot’s of them lately…and it sucks and leads to more ice cream…as if that helps ;) . So cuddled in bed (with a tummy aching from the ice cream) I watched this:

And when I woke up the next morning I had this “WHATEVER” happy feeling, cranked up the music and created this canvas inspired by Candy Chang, just for me without any goal …. just trying to be the person I already am. It felt good…it still does…

 

Before I die I want to become the person that I AM.

Meaning stop thriving to be a different person, stop being a people pleaser, stop sacrificing my goals and my dreams to fulfill other’s goals and dreams, stop whining (might still eat ice cream….), stop doubting myself, stop to wish I had a different childhood, start telling people into their face that they suck instead of smiling the smile of pleasantries because I want to be a better person, start allowing myself to be edgy as I am instead of only allowing it others and being jealous of that they are so true to themselves, start to be happy with all the amazing things that I am blessed with in my life and accept everything that wasn’t roses as part of what makes me ME. Just become the person that I am!

What would you fill in the gaps of: Before I die I want to….?

 

Nat

Comments (19)

  • Riikka

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    You’re such an inspiration! This video and your canvas really touched me as well as your text. <3

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  • Lisa Flaherty

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    What a great message, Nat. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself and for invoking thoughtful contemplation about who I am, what I want, and how to express my true self. Hugs!

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  • Miranda

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    Hi Nathalie, just discovered your blog and was touched by your openness and authentic message. Also I’ve enjoyed looking at this video, that kind of people really make the world more beautiful and add some essential! I think we must embrace ourselves in all facets of our being and I know also that’s sometimes not easy at all….in fact I am struggling every day with life and myself but then when I read these kind of messages I know there are so many people who do, so let me me embrace life, thanks again for your inspiration! greet from the heart, Miranda

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  • rains

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    I love your honesty. I have a very similar sentence – to find authenticity. I too want to be brave enough to say it like it is and to accept that the “bad” is all part of what make it all worthwhile, in the end – i want to stop judging anything as good or bad and just let it all be. I am looking forward to watching the video.

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  • Toñy Hernandez Ramos

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    Decirte Nat que muchas gracias de nuevo, porque tu arte me hace reflexionar dia a dia. Un abrazo

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